Thank you so much for sharing your story. It is really hard to stand by someone who is saying and doing awful things. When I filed my divorce for a couple of days I felt great and even went to the bar my ex attended and partied about filing it....but after things started coming to light I started feeling horrible about filing the divorce. My ex wanted to continue with the divorce, he said you already spent the money....I hurt him badly (even though he is the one who said he wanted the divorce)....
I know that everything that has happened had to be. In the end we both will be better people and when God brings us back together it will be awesome!
It is just hard waiting........everyone around me (even Christian friends) tell me that I should just walk away from him....but every time I try it just feels wrong.....Everyone says you are divorced, what are you waiting for.......People don't understand me.....
Just last year (after I kicked my ex out again) I dated a guy that I went to high school with....I actually had a crush on him in high school......Things seemed great....our kids got along...we had similar interests...etc....But something inside me just didn't feel right.....I had an ill feeling about the whole relationship. One day my daughter told me something his kid had said, so I questioned him about it......It started a whole arguement.....I decided to stop seeing him at that point...A month later I found out that his divorce was not finalized....So he was basically committing adultery with me....I was horrified....I had flat out asked him if it was final and he told me yes.......The man I thought was so great ended up being a liar.....
Thank you again! God bless,
Sounds like we have more in common than I thought.
Its so painful finding out you've been lied to, after you've already been through so much.
It has taken me a long time to be ok after the affair.
I let my heart fall so hard for this man, and was glad that I was finally going to be over my husband.
But the man I thought I was inlove with, was just a player. There are so many of them out there.
They are even in the church.
God wants us to fill our void with him, and to trust him with our lives.
He will give us the desires of our hearts as we follow him and seek his face.
I realized I really didn't know what the desires of my heart were outside of God.
The fog was so thick, All I saw was my broken heart hurting inside me.
I think the enemy stills try to make me feel defeated at times. I'll be ok one day and then all the sudden
I get hit with condemnation, guilt, regret, saddness, etc.
These moments I have to really fight AND HANG ON FOR DEAR LIFE. But each time it gets a little easier step by step,
new day by each new day.
I'll keep you lifted in prayer as I know the same dark hollow place your walking through.
Hand your husband over to God, and pray for him. Thats really all you can do.
Meanwhile, It would be wise not to jump into the (single realm of dating)
Don't build a road of regret like I did. Focus on your children at this time, they so need you right now.
I look back and wish that I didn't stay so torn up all those years, that it stoled memories away from them.
We have a purpose here, and its not to let men steal who we are, and keep us defeated, Everything we go through, is teaching us who we will be on the other side of it all, and that we are going to help others.
I know you already know all this that I am saying, we just have to keep telling ourselves this truth.
God Bless, I hope you have a great day today!